Weird.

Que raro es todo.

Es una gran revelación cuando experimentas que la vida no es como las películas o series.

(Y cuanto antes te das cuenta mejor).

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Is quite sad how I'm not going to ever feel what I felt for you for anyone else.

The funny part is that you never knew.

Psiquismo vs. realidad.

El empirismo siempre fue mi forma de ver la vida, incluso antes de saber lo que era. Me es imposible creerme la mayoría de cosas si no hay prueba de ello, tanto a nivel social como a nivel científico. Este pensamiento me ha hecho rechazar muchas corrientes más "bonitas" que hablan más de sentimientos, psiquismo y traumas infantiles. Pero ¿quién dice que el empirismo tiene que estar enfrentado a pensamientos más positivistas? En realidad siendo eficientes y pragmáticos la felicidad es lo que todos buscamos, somos emoción y, como psicólogos, lo que la gente suele buscar en nosotros es el desahogo y mejora o arreglo de esas emociones. Por todo esto creo que tengo que empezar a conciliar ese empirismo con una visión más, como he mencionado, pragmática y emocional. Y no solo por mi labor futura como psicólogo, sino por mi propia felicidad.
Como siempre conseguir romper con las reglas es uno de mis objetivos principales y hablar de sentimientos para mi es, a cierto nivel, romper las reglas.

I say we're not done 'til you're giving up the ghost.

I've always hated people who love themselves too much, but lately I've been re-thinking about all that stuff. We are here for a very limited portion of time, we shouldn't be worrying about stupid moralisms like that one. To love oneself is something that we all should do, and sadly is something that has never been in my life. I'm sure you can find happiness much more easier if you're not afraid of exposing yourself, if you're able to enjoy your own body and your own personality.
If that means taking a picture of myself shirtless because I can find some sort of beauty in that, or if it means expressing a controversial opinion, so be it.
And in front all of that comes the inner demon of caring too much about other people's thoughts. That's an almost indestructible wall that, if you think about it, is one of the most stupid ones. Do you think the great artists or the scientists who have discovered the most incredible things would have come far worrying about what some of their friends were thinking about the things they were doing?
If I have to name one single thing I have learned this year studying psychology is that the most important impediment to be creative is a normative personality. Not being able to break the rules or think outside the box is a very sad characteristic that I have to admit I own. And I think the first step to overcome that is stop worrying about the others and start worrying about me.
We'll see if this is a new chapter of my personal journey or just a random thought that I will never follow.